It has been almost two weeks since we arrived at our new home. The unpacking and organizing is now winding down. The ordinary tasks of meals to prepare, children’s books to be read, and work meetings to attend takes the place of planning, packing, and anticipating. I am struggling to find a new normal.
The question of “what next?” comes to mind. We are on a journey to greater self-sufficiency, and yet we are no closer to that realization. Impatiently, I imagine a dozen activities we could begin undertaking – soil amending and seed starting; researching composting toilets and water catchment systems … but we are still in a temporary place for an indeterminate time.
I remind myself of our current priorities – creating a new community of friends, homeschoolers, and role models for the life we are striving for. The children need connections. We need connections.
I admit I am feeling homesick already. Homesick for the comfort of familiarity. The network of family and friends we left behind. The familiarity that comes from living in the same place for many years. We often take for granted the simple process of knowing where to buy local eggs for the best price and who is likely to sell out first at the farmer’s market Saturday mornings. Or the best place to take a walk on a wet windy day.
I admit I am a creature of habit, and I prefer a comfortable routine that I can count on. At the moment, though, I am feeling very much out of sync, sort of floating through each day, not sure what I am supposed to be doing or how to prioritize my time.
In many ways I realize this is a good thing, perhaps allowing me to be more mindful and present. And of course, moving to a new place provides us the opportunity to re-create ourselves.
While we overcome some of the challenges involved in our current circumstances, I remind myself (once again) that it is OK to slow down. There is no need to solve all our problems at once or to carry out everything right now. We left the familiar because we wanted to live more mindfully and more simply.
Everything that slows us down and forces patience, everything that sets us back into the slow circles of nature, is a help. ~May Sarton
So I will take each day and each moment as it comes. Before long, a new normal will have formed. And I probably won’t even know it when it happens.